About time for some sort of update, for anyone who cares to read.
I go through phases of wanting to draw or not. There's stuff I need to finish, stuff I keep discovering, and of course there's the randomly inspired stuff. I've been finding it more difficult to draw when my partner is at home, he can be annoying, and I have issues with sudden emotional/mood changes. But I try to draw/colour something at least once a week, and my doodles and sketches usually end up on my tumblr or twitter 'cos I use my phone mostly nowadays. I even drew non-dragon characters this week! Two realistic horsey characters and a robot, yes a robot, I drew something mechanical!
As for progression in art, not so much, if anything my art has regressed; I can't colour very well using my Polychromo pencils anymore (or any coloured pencils), so I've taken to using Promarkers instead. Painting is still an option for me, it's just that I make that up as I go along.
Anyone who's watched me for a good number of years is probably aware that I have health issues, in particular with my back, knees, and shoulder. These don't bother me so much anymore, they're still an issue, even though i've cut back on the amount of painkillers I take (i actually became addicted to co-codamol). But there's other things getting in my way. The migraines. The daily and almost constant varying degrees of migraines I get. Still don't know what's causing them; is it the car crash I had? The fall and hit on my head I forgot about until recently? Stress from any collection of other issues? Work and the LED lighting? Wearing glasses doesn't do anything to help, and the beta-blocker medication I take constantly doesn't seem to be doing anything. If they get real bad (like blindness, severe vertigo, and skull screaming pain) then I have wicked meds for that, but unable to do anything following taking such. It's making my life a chore, leaving me unmotivated, unwilling, and with a horrendous short-term memory.
And there's the nosebleed problem. Sinus issues and frequent nosebleeds have plagued me from a young age. I finally became so done with the 2-5 attacks a day, I've been referred to the hospital and hopefully they'll look to cauterizing the blood vessel. That'd be one less stress. As would getting on top of the skin condition that I've had for the last 20 years. Ugh, antibiotics, creams, lotions, and steroids don't do shit, I just hope I don't have to go on that hospital administered medication and injections again.
Then there's the diagnosis of having severe anxiety and depression, both, yes. I'm on medication, and I have to see professionals. I'm very wary about who I disclose any of those related issues to in regards to why I'm in such a mental state, even my partner doesn't know. Doctors suspect that some of my mental and social issues are caused by something else, and more investigation is needed.
I desperately need a holiday of some sort, but money and the fact that the partner doesn't want to go on holiday with me kinda gets in the way. Though tbh I'd quite happily go somewhere on my own.
I shall be 35 years old soon, and my birthday will likely be spent on my own, but I want to do something at least. And spending it at my parent's house is not desirable, I do not feel comfortable there. I may at least treat myself to a spa treatment/massage. Fuck everyone else.
To add to my hideous depression, my beloved cornsnake Solstice died suddenly a couple of weeks ago. Of course I blame myself with no idea how/what could have caused his death. I am still contemplating that I am not fit to keep animals, and therefore am considering rehoming my other critters. I'm selling the empty vivarium for a start.
My life is dull. I either go to work or stay at home on my days off. I do not go out generally, and don't have friends to meet up with much. A good example is the pedal bike I had bought and restored for me last birthday, I have not been out on it once!
And something I really must do soon is dust all my dragon figurines! And see if I can find that fake dragon 'fossil' collectable I remember having but haven't seen in years, I don't recall selling it, I just wonder where it is? (it has a special wooden 'crate' and certificate for it's limited edition).
tl;dr: Update is that I'm a procrastinating physically and mentally knackered miserable fart.
Listening to: Jethro Tull
Playing: Clash of Queens
Drinking: hazelnut milk